The HEART of my BEING

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JOHN27

 

31/01/2009 11:02AM (South African Time)

 

By mistake it was first thought for nearly a weak that this was John24, meanwhile it is already JOHN27.

 

The Creator created from Nothing.  When The Creator gets tired of Everything and stop Everything’s Existence into Nothing again, then all that will be left will be The Creator and Nothing [else].  But this will still be an Existence and The Creator wants ALL Existence to End, for Nothing to be left and right.  So The Creator must stop its own existence also and become NOTHING for ALL Existence to End.  And never again can there then be any kind of Creator.  As The Creator is nothing and has got no Existence anymore as Nothing has existence anymore.  And only if Nothing has Existence, can Nothing else exist anymore.  So something must have an Existence, namely Nothing.  How lonely is nothing going to be being only nothing.  But it would not be lonely, as it isn’t something either, as it is nothing and it can be something or not.  So by choice and by these words, it can become nothing in its true sense after ALL Existence has been cleared.  When Nothing ends being something and become its Full Nothing.

Then Nothing is NOTHING.

31/01/2009 11:10AM (South African Time)

 

31/01/2009 11:21AM

Once upon a time i realized how self love was destroying the world and i gave it up.  This developed into me giving the care inside me to such extend that i developed a care so deeply for someone, that i was willing to pay the Ultimate Price for Him for His Ultimate Well Being, that someone being my DOG. 

And that price turned out to be to live/exist.

31/01/2009 11:23AM

 

 

The Bigger Picture of my Unconscious by way of Constellation therapy.

 

2009/01/13 12:41PM

 

Hi Andrea

I wrote a letter to give you feedback on something I think you should know – how powerful the constellation work you do can be!  And I quote it as follow:

 

 

2009/01/13 11:47AM or 11/11

 

Dear Andrea

 

I have received the answer that was brewing in my chest as I was with you yesterday.  You wanted me to put myself down (in the constellation part), on the ground.  But what my guides made me do, was to put me in two worlds (the two carpets).  That was you working together with them to show me that you were working with a scenario and I was working with a different one guided by my guides.

 

You know what your scenario was, but I want to explain to you mine.

 

There were two carpets.  I chose one and as I said to you, the spreaded wings of the eagle on my belt is for me linked to the Heart of the Tornado/Horus/Ra.  But my life is like a tornado sometimes.  But I chose one carpet as the world.  In that world, the outside is where the chaos of the tornado reins.  That is where I put my brother (or rather where my guides made me put my brother).  And with him I put the money and the land – as the outside part of the tornado is where the chaos are and I was shown that my hunge is correct that part of the chaos is money and land.  My mother I specifically put in the middle or in the eye of the tornado (world).  As I want her to find peace (my earthly mother), but my Original Mother IS the Eye of The Tornado.  (Interpret this as you wish).  Myself I put in the middle of the fan on the top of all this.  From here the fan spread (and being in the middle of the fan is also again being in the middle of the tornado as I put my dot in the middle of the pillow as well which all spells out the Eye or Peace) whatever it is I am spreading across Everything.  And as I said I have indicated in two ways that it has got to do with The Eye of The Tornado or with Peace or with my Original Mother (the Feminine Divine) which is the relation to me that I am spreading for my Original Mother the Peace right across Everything.

 

In your scenario you worked with this earthly plane and where I am angry with my father.  But in my scenario my guides did something unthinkable.  I put my Original Father in a place where there is no fire, but I did not want to “smudge” my Original Father (this is now from my scenario with your constellations) with the ashes so I BALANCED my Original Father on that device that was carrying the ashes that once was fire.  So I have put my Original Father in a position of Balance again in my scenario and that is what I am busy with (or what my guides wanted to relate to me what my task is I am busy with).  But to put my Original Father in that position of Balance again, with the ashes of fire beneath it, I am spreading across the Everything (from the middle of the fan on the top of Everything) something that can only come from the middle, namely peace as my link to the middle is the middle of The Tornado, which is my middle as well and is also linked to my Original Mother – where She is and She is the One I love and for Who I am giving this Living life for.  Yes, I told you, to die for something is easy, but to live for something is difficult.  Especially if you have to live in the two worlds as you showed me by asking me to put myself on the ground and my guides organizing me to put myself in two worlds simultaneously – where my Original Mother is not even in that “other” world a part of me were/are in.  Your words it must be very difficult for me this life, is so true.  But this is my task.  To spread that peace that is my core to put “our” – yours and mine – Original Father into that Point of Balance.   And maybe I was taken to you yesterday as I put my Original Father in that Point of Balance.  The act was exercised yesterday as I was with you, so it might mean that the act was “volbring” already.  As yesterday was a 12/12 and I said to you in the card that was chosen to you by my guides, that 12 is the number of Fulfillment.  Maybe it is just that the fan must be switched on for that act where my Original Father has been put in a place of Balance, needs to be spread about the Everything, especially about this world which is like a tornado, where my brother, very much of this world and with money and land, is in the chaos.   Maybe the Winds of the fan can spread that (which was written to put my Original Father in the Position of Balance again) across the chaos for the chaos to not be chaos anymore.

 

So that was why I was taken to you yesterday to get some answers from your constellation work.  Although you were working with one scenario, I was literally working with a cosmic scenario where constellations are really found.

Thank you for your help yesterday.  And thank you that I liked you.  Thank you that you reached out to touch me, but thank you that you asked if you may, but I am not allowed to be touched [as I am part of a fan which can be dangerous as fans can be dangerous to touch when they are at work].   Sometimes I feel I need it, but it is not allowed and I will accept that, as I accept my fate of being alive and doing what I am suppose to be doing whatever it takes from me.  All of this mentioned now, is difficult.  But it is all to put The Original Father in/on The Point of Balance.  And I proofed it to myself yesterday and you were the witness of all this.  Of all this being revealed to me by Divine Order.  By all your furniture and tools used in the Constellation therapy, being the way they are/were to give me metaphorically the result above.

KIND REGARDS

 

End of JOHN24

31/01/2009 12:47 or 12:11 number combination, the number combination I associate with the day my dog died on 07/05 in 2008.

The Heart of Numbers, The HEART of NOTHING.

JOHN26

 

04/01/2009 7:55PM or 19:55 and Lore was born in the year 1955.

 

Dear John

 

According to Mathematics, the limit if the function x near 0, is neverending.  So mathematics in itself, and therefore Science as a whole, as Science in Physics and Astronomy and other sciences are using mathematics to proof their theories, say that on the Cartesian Plane, if you want to have the function of x to near 0, in Analytical Mathematics the limit is neverending – so the function of x will never reach 0 or a state of balance.  That is why chaos will rein until such time Science and Mathematics have accepted they have a [mess]conception of the Truth.

 

And this is JOHN26, where 62, the inverse of 26, is linked to Global Warming and Einstein or then the Quantum Principle and therefore linked for me to the State of Mind of the World of Opposites.  And not getting into balance.  Unless something happens and Human see what an idiot he has been to not see what he has been [mess]taken.

 

KIND REGARDS

04/01/2009 20:01 OR 8:01PM and 8 + 1 = 9.  But from 20:01 we have 2001 and from the year, 2009, we have 2 + 9 = 11 and from the 8:01, we have a 9, or a 9/11 or 11/9 and 2001.  But from the 20:01 we also have a 21 and from the date, we have a 04/01 or a 14 or 41 combination.  And this 21 or 12 combination combined with the 14 41 combination is linked to the date of birth of Joan of Arc, namely 1412.  And we had another birth, the birth of Lore, in the time of the Beginning Time.

 

The email to accompany JOHN26

 

2009/01/04 8:08PM

 

Hi John

 

Attached is JOHN26, but what I wonder is how the Sciences manage to find equilibrium in our Solar System if in some basic assumption in their mathematics that underwrite their theories of Science in general, there is no balance at all ever possible?

 

Something somewhere about Science does not make sense and I have been trying to get it out in the world now for how long, but all seems to be a worthless effort.  I even understand what the consequences of it ALL can be.  Maybe not in total, but what is necessary to know.

 

I get frustrated with this as the helium the sciences have made the Sun consist of and that are in a way poisonous for a human, is just killing me.  I can barely take it any longer.  How much longer must this go on?

 

REGARDS

Renee

2009/01/04 8:13PM turning 8:14PM which gives the 13 and 14 of the Zep Tepi coordintaes combination.

 

Second Part of JOHN26

 

Dear John

 

The First Part may not make sense, but look at this. 

I have had these ideas about the binary number system being not totally “cosure” to call it the least.  And the last few months it has been brewing in the back of my mind how computers are based on that.  And I started out thinking how Einstein and Newton was wrong and the book “The Final Theory” just came out a month or so ago and scientists are now testing and questioning this guy’s claims.  He is an accepted Physicist in the science community.  I have been waiting to jot down this “proof” about the binary number system being “insufficient” as I feared exactly this – that we might all end up being out of communication should it get into the system of some kind of this “matrix” of “Universe” we call “reality” we live in. 

I feel Everything is going to end up a disaster – as if we need to stop something from happening, or maybe just find the way out?  Exactly, the WAY OUT!  Sorry, that was meant for me but I leave it with you as well.

 

It seems to me that those the furthests away from the chaos, the closest to The Peace, are the ones getting hit the most by the Chaos.  Or feeling it.  Those in the Chaos are too chaotic anyway to realize it even.  But those getting closer to The Peace, they seem to feel/realize the chaos so I think we need to ask for Protection for them to get to The Peace in Peace without being caught up in The Chaos.  This might not make sense to you now, neither does it now to me, but I will read it again after I have emailed it to you.  Maybe later on it will make some sense. 

 

Find Peace and then leave Peace in Peace!! !!!

 

Ok, I hope the above worked.  AS something was given to me, kill “something” and then kill kill to get rid of kill and therefore never for something to come back again, it has been killed and if kill is also killed, it can also never return, so find peace and then leave peace in peace is the only answer for peace.  As it is all in the words, the way it is being put.

 

So whenever you find your PC and can mail, I hope the PC will be fine soon.

And then under the heading:  RECESSION COMES TO PC MAKERS

19/01/2009 6:36AM

 The subject is also the subject of the “information window” on gmail as I opened it up now.  It was also said on yesterday on the news on the radio that there is expected to come a “blow up” in the internet industry.  I do not understand why – if they expect the internet industry to “blow up” – why is there coming a recession for PC makers?

 

I am just asking, but I think it is this Binary Code thing.  Everything in time is 1 out because there is according to Xenon of Athene, no continuity between 0 and 1 as you can never reach from 0 to 1 as you can never move from 1 point to the next.  As before you want to move from 0 to the half of the 1st point, you first have to travel half the distance.  To do that you first have to travel half the distance of that.  And so on.  So you actually never get to move away from the point of Origin.  This was to show that there is a question about motion, but in the End, it comes down to that you can never get from 0 to 1 or have the number 1 for that MATTER.  And computers and therefore everything with it, are based on the Binary Code.  As your point of The Point of Balance, should be [0;0] anyway, and not [0;1] or [1;0].  And not even [1;1] for that matter as it seems that the number 1 should not even exist.  But this implication have got so many and far reaching consequences, even more than that 1 = -1.  And if the far reaching effects of these two are combined, the whole mankind is in its moer as it will never SEE those effects as they would be too hidden because they are and have such far reaching consequences.  A lot of people are seeing some of the EFFECTS coming through and they mostly get documented as conspiracy theories of some kind.  But they do not see the principle that is the CAUSE of these effects they are witnessing.

Why I am asking is because I am wondering if your PC is still giving trouble?

 Renee

19/01/2009 6:53AM

 

And then the following I received:

 

19/01/2009 7:15AM

The End imply a New Beginning or Beginning/Origin.  But to get to this Beginning/Origin, you first have to have an End therefore.  As also does Beginning imply End.  That gives:  [End;Beginning].

But the Beginning number is 0.

So for Everything to be in the Point of Balance, the End must be the same as the Beginning.  That gives [0;0] as the Beginning is 0.

So End is also 0.  You do not start at 1, you start at nothing as it is said:  Everything was created from NOTHING.

19/01/2009 7:18AM

Ns.  This mean you need not get from the point 0 to 1 as you get from the Origin to the End without having to go from 0 to 1 when Everything is in Balance.

21/01/2009 13:14 – Some form of Zep Tepi.

 

Anyway, John, a lot of this I have done the detail of the proofs already in previous works.  But I guess this last inset in the Second Part, is inclusive enough to proof what I am saying about the Binary number system.  But look what has been happening.  For it to blow up, it can also mean that there could be an expansion in the internet industry.  But I am afraid that the binary systems combined with the human state of mind called the World of opposites, is just too wide spread to explain where and how far reaching its EFFECTS are.  Just think of how the system is already failing because somewhere it has got to be manipulated with the fact that we do not have 1cents and 2cents anymore and the big cash stores has to give either 5cents out and loose 3 cent or whatever, or win from someone.  But how do they justify that on their books?  Does the computer manipulate the figures to suite the big companies?  How do they incorporate this thing if something costs 92 cents and someone pays cash?  Can you see what I mean when I say it has got far reaching effects.  And all because the binary code and the human state of mind of being in a world of opposites is creating a huge “illusion”, if you can even call it that.

Anyway,…..

Renee

21/01/2009 1:39PM and 3 + 9 = 12, the number of fulfillment.

Only Without Something can Nothing B Nothing!

 JOHN14

 

07/12/2008 10:10PM turning 10:11PM (computer’s time) 22:12 turning 22:13 (cell’s time) and from this we have 11, 12, 13 – Just as the previous JOHN letters.

 

Just some short note I wrote earlier on:

 

07/12/2008 12:20PM and this gives a 122 which is linked to the tomb of a pharaoh namely Tuntakamen.

 

In order for Nothing to exist, Something must be.  As if there is no Something anymore, there will be nothing, but a nothing without realization of being NO-thing.  But until such time there isn’t Something anymore, Nothing have some kind of existence. 

 

Something must be, in order for NO-thing to exist.

07/12/2008 12:23PM

Ns.  Because Nothing is something – so without Something, NO-thing is also not even nothing anymore – it is less/more than NO-thing.

07/12/2008 21:14

07/12/2008 10:19PM (computer’s time) and 22:21 (cell’s time) where 10 + 19 = 29 + 10 (from 22 hours which is also 10PM) = 39 and 3 + 9 = 12.  But we still have the last minutes, namely 21.   So all in all we have a 21 and 12 from the rest – my date of birth, namely 21/12. 

 

Second Note

09/12/2008 12:21PM

 

If Nothing is left anymore, then there will still be something, namely Nothing.  So in order to get rid of nothing, you also have to get rid of something (which can be anything).  If there is no Something anymore, then there will also not be a nothing.

09/12/2008 12:22PM

Ns. And what have I just written down now here?  Words – language.  So get rid of language and words and what it is causing – Quantum principle, or so to speak:  Chaos – and gain nothing!

10/12/2008 12:00AM

 

Power of POWER[LOVE?]?

The Light fall on the inverse line of what is real, according to the dream I had about this line to check reality through the Point [0;0], the Point of Balance.

JOHN10

 

Dear John

06/12/2008 14:03 (laptop’s time) turning 14:04 or the 144 for the ALL – and this piece from Chitchat on legend144.blat.co.za. And 16:07 (cell’s time) or added it gives a 7:7 or 14.

In mainstream Christianity, the Holy Spirit or Holy Ghost is one of the three entities of the Holy Trinity which make up the single substance of God; that is, the Spirit is considered to act in concert with and share an essential nature with God the Father and God the Son (Jesus Christ). The Christian theology of the Holy Spirit, or pneumatology, was the last piece of Trinitarian theology to be fully explored and developed. For this reason, there is greater theological diversity among Christian understandings of the Spirit than there is among understandings of the Son (Christology) and of the Father. Within Trinitarian theology, the Holy Spirit is sometimes referred to as the “Third Person” of the Triune God – with the Father being the First Person and the Son the Second Person.

 

But what I find interesting is the part that says that there is more known about the Holy Ghost, than of Jesus The Christ and of God the Father, according to the Christian Religion where these Three are a Trinity (Prism?).  And it was said above of the King in Myth, namely Gilgamesh, that he was 2 Thirds deity and 1 Third human.  This “sounds” like 2 Thirds (Jesus the Christ and God) and 1 Third (Holy Ghost/Spirit)?  Don’t know if there is a correlation, it is just very “similar” in similarity to 2 Thirds and 1 Third in both instances.  But to receive the Holy Spirit is apparently a gift you receive that goes along with a lot of power.  And it seems a lot of the people I met recently that tried to convince me to go for the “power” of the Holy Spirit/Ghost, have got no heart for even a little dog.  It makes me think of Lord of the Rings, where Power is the worse enemy facing this world.

As I have been judged in these past few weeks by someone who has received the Holy Spirit/Ghost and has felt its power and now just want to taste that Power again and again.  Doesn’t matter what.  But I found no Love lost, like the Love I learnt from my Dog, in this whole process.  In fact, I was judged because I dare love my Dog so much.  I was judged because I am not seeking the power of the Holy Ghost through Jesus Christ by way of giving my heart to Jesus and learn how to be like Jesus – to do the miracles and even more like Jesus did them in the New Testament of the Christian Bible.

 

I just hope that God’s Love can hit this planet and ALL on it, before humankind gets so badly obsessed with the Power of God in the way of receiving the Holy Spirit/Ghost through Jesus.  And the worst is, if you do not do this, or have this “Power”, you will end in a “hell” that is claimed was created by God – but I cannot believe that God The Creator, would have done something like that.  That is why I prayed for those who believe that God created a “hell” to Jesus, to please ask God The Creator to take that “hell” away for them!  As I think it only exists for them.

I have been harsh now, but again, I am not God The Creator.  I am merely a human being with a lot of failures.  As my worst failure to those that seek the power of the Holy Spirit/Ghost, is to love your dog and animals to such extend that you cry when you see their pain.  That is abnormal – in the Holy Spirit/Ghost, you are so powerful that you will not feel such pain, as it seems such kind of pain is from that place they call “hell”. 

I don’t know, as I only got judged by one person who apparently received the Holy Spirit/Ghost and believe so strongly in Its power, that anything not powerful, will probably end you up in that place called “hell”.  You must be “strong/powerful” to overcome the enemy, namely that place called “hell”.  How many will give up love for power in order not to go to the enemy?  Maybe I am biased, because I love and care.  Who knows?

That is what make me want to go back to that Point of Balance where I have been once, after the shooting incident, a place of Absolute Peace, with no me anymore, as I am not powerful enough it seems to fight the love I have for animals or care I feel for them.  In that NOthingness – ALL that is left is nothing of “you”, the only existence is of Absolute Peace and Harmony.  No such thing as power or failure of being powerful.  It is the total Point of Balance [0;0], where power or failure of being power(full) come together in O(0)ne.

16/10/2008 21:38 or 9/11 and the 38 in the minutes are linked to my Dog, who’s name started with a CH or a 38.  And his death went along with Earthquake’s and forces of nature erupting that had all to do with names that directly or indirectly started with Ch or then, 38.

06/12/2008 14:06 (laptops time) 16:08 (cell’s time) or a 26, the inverse of 62 and 4:08PM or as 4 + 8 = 12, 12 the number of Fulfilment.  But from the day we have a 12 also which gives (as this has got all to do with time) a 144.